Friday, December 31, 2010

New Year's Resolutions

This maybe 2 days or so early, but I wanted to start working on this already. New Year's Resolutions may seem really cliché but this has been the first year that I feel like I really need to make those resolutions and primary stick to them.

  • Listen to the promptings of the Holy Ghost and Heavenly Father.
  • Start balancing my checkbook again.
  • Curse less, which I actually I have started.
  • Working out at least twice a week, and stick to it.
  • Worry less and stop nitpicking as much
  • Spend less time on Facebook.
Most of those don't seem to terribly hard, but the list is composed of all kinds of things that I know I personally need to work on. I hope and pray that sticking to these resolutions will make me a better person.
Happy New Year's Everyone!

Thursday, December 30, 2010


Have had the feeling that your abandoned and you've got no where to go? I've had this feeling many times before I found the church. Before heading to college, I threated to move out at lest three or more times. My best friend was going to shack me for awhile, then it was off to college for this adventure. But no, I stayed. Yet, there are still many times were I wished I did just move out. Right now, my home is back in Canton at the Tri-Sigma house, or with some friends (DeGraw's) It's pretty sad, when your home doesn't seem like your actually home. Delaying going home just so, I don't have to deal with my family is pretty sad but it works. Sometimes, in my hometown, I feel like I'm just a burden upon my parents.
Yet, Heavenly Father helps me not feel alone. Holy Ghost is like this warm and fuzzy feel that keeps my soul and sanity is one piece, and help my outburst. (Temper..) To Heavenly Father , we are never a burden unlike I am to my family. This is the first time, I've publicly talk about these feelings that I've had this past year. Hopefully I can grow from this, and become better.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Telling Your Parents

"Mom, I'm a Latter-Day Saint...You know a Mormon." I can hear the silence or screaming that will occur when I tell her. But with promptings from the spirit, it won't as bad. Being from a mostly Roman Catholic family, it's like I'm the black sheep of the family. This week has been filled with prayer to Heavenly Father, because I'm fearful that my mother will see my computer background (which is the San Diego Temple), my scriptures, or this blog for that matter. Just a few days ago, I felt this amazing feeling that filled me with this warm and fuzzy glow. My family(The DeGraw's) supported me through this whole journey. I'm so thankful for them, for nurturing the spirit in me.

I got the best answer from Elder DeGraw, which was pray about it. Which I have most certainly done. I'm thankful for Heavenly Father, and Christ's Atonement for our sins.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Blessings of the Season

Oh yes, another blessings list. Not very long, just a little list, my body feels pretty tired. But this time of year never made me think or even count my blessings until now. This song is appropriate for this time.
I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Halleujah By Rufus Wainwright

  • My testimony has been one thing I've been forming and I'm blessed with having a testimony, and a church that nurture my spirit and faith.
  • For my Grandparents, who support my artistic ability regardless of how bad I think it might be. My grandpa is a pretty legit artist and he really liked a Warhol like piece that wasn't realistic for the professor.
  • White chocolate, it keeps the PMS/anger monster away. God was a genius when he created it! Yummy, Dove White Chocolate and Hersey as well.
  • ΣΣΣ Eta Sigma Chapter, those girls are some of my best friends I'll ever have. Some of these girls remind me of my friends from home.
  • Faith, something that has been lost to me for many years. But has been recently found and is a great gift from Heavenly Father.
  • Just being able to pick up certain talents quickly, for example cutting hair. First of all by no means am I not a professional but for some odd reason I decently enough cut my roommate and Jeff's hair well. (I swear no one can cut that boy's hair... Except his Aunt Laurie. Lol)
  • The missionaries that taught my lessons, those were probably some of the most exiting and nerdy times I had during the semester.

Monday, December 27, 2010


While back at home I went to Fulton Ward. Wow, I was in for an adventure. My ward is pretty awesome and welcoming, and I didn't feel that while in the Fulton Ward. It just seems like a face in a crowd, it was very impersonal. Just during second hour, it seemed very political. I could deal with that, its understandable it happens. But then, they brought up something that was very personal and close to me. (Lack of)Violence in video games, if it did cause violence I'd be a very messed up person. Anyhow, it was a very conservative ward, not somewhere I feel welcome. I just want to go back to my home ward (Quincy)

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Doctor Who

Doctor Who, is one of the most awesome thing that Britain has imported to the United States. Its about this person call the Doctor, who is a time lord (two hearts and travels through time). says
Doctor Who is a British science fiction television programme produced by the BBC. The programme depicts the adventures of a mysterious and eccentric Time Lord known as the Doctor whotravels through time and space in his time machine, the TARDIS (an acronym for Time And Relative Dimension(s) In Space), which normally appears from the exterior to be a blue 1950s Britishpolice box. With his companions, he explores time and space, faces a variety of foes and saves civilizations, helping people and righting wrongs.
The reason this is my posts is because, the Doctor exemplifies the spirit of Christmas. He helps people that are in trouble. He is sorta like Santa, because he helps people. I know this is a bit late, but the Christmas special is on BBC. I would hope people would agree with me, to say that the Doctor is a Christian man . Doctor Who is one of the best shows that I've watched in a long time, and I highly encourage everyone to watch it.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Christmas, not feeling alone

Christmas, one the two most important holidays that is celebrated. (The other one is easter) Its the season that all should be their families and enjoying the holidays. But if you feel like you don't belong with your family, then where should you go? Yet if you feel alone during the Christmas season, your really not. The holy ghost is always there with you no matter what, so no matter how alone you feel during the holidays your really not.

There have been times that I've felt completely alone, it seemed like no one cared about me. But after that occurrence, I cried within Jeff's arms for an hour or so. This has do with Christmas, because sometimes at during this time I feel alone and the Heavenly Father and Holy Ghost helps us feel not alone. They always help us feel like we're not alone and always have someone to talk to. Holy Ghost and Heavenly Father are some of the best listeners and can always help when you feel alone or when you just simply want to talk to them.
10And behold, he shall be born of Mary, at Jerusalem which is the land of our forefathers, she being a virgin, a precious and chosen vessel, who shall be overshadowed and conceive by the power of the Holy Ghost, and bring forth a son, yea, even the Son of God. Alma 7: 10
4And this according to the grace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, to whom be all glory, both now and forever. Amen. D&C 20:4
Merry Christmas Everyone!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Modesty Within College

What's the first thought people have of modesty? Ankle length skirts and long sleeved shirts. That may seem a little extreme but its what comes up in my mind. College is one of the most eye-opening experiences someone would ever have. Even for the hard-nosed religious, it exposes them to other types of people. Someone can think their not modest... Personally I thought I was immodest, realistically I'm modest. Well minus one shirt. But I don't wear that top that often. Yet I don't understand, why people dress like their worthless and cheap. If a person's clothes scream "I'm easy!!" that just makes that girl's self-worth less and less. So I feel like modesty is one of the important things that I've been exposed to. Hopefully women receive respect from their men because they dress modestly and not like hoochie momma's.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

LDS, College, Faith Oh My!

Well the first semester of college is complete with slight glitches... Inspiration came to write on this again. It's going to be just a overview of my week, thoughts, blessings, and general things.

Never ever have a class with your boyfriend/girlfriend. I know why it can't be done. Both very nit-picky it never ends well.
Have an open mind.
Always have a backup plan, this is supported in multiple ways from this semester.
Being LDS is one the best blessings ever...period! My faith has never been stronger then it is now.
Missouri is one the most weather temperamental.
My Tri-Sigma sisters are some of the best people ever.

The DeGraw family, without them I wouldn't be the person I am spiritually and psychically.
Culver-Stockton College, which has gave me the opportunity to excel in everything I do . And I home away from home.
Quincy Ward, for welcoming me like I'm their own.
Jeff, so many things I could say about him. Amazing
White Chocolate, yummy. Helps with stress and time of the month.

General Things
Mormons are not crazy, believe me.
Sororities are NOT cults... I swears
Tempers can be controlled in time, like mine.

This week has been full of all kinds of emotions. I'm not really a Christmas person, its became too commercialized with everything ...